Today i went to tamps library to study with easty and it was disturbing how students (probably in the same plight as me) were swarming in front of the unopened doors of knowledge LOLOL 15 minutes before it was scheduled to open. It was literally a crowd and i just stared in awe. The speed they took up the tables was breakneck and we had to scavange for a while before finding two seats where we could settle and begin our daily routine. (Really pardon me for the formal-er language cus i just written an essay) Macs for breakfast and omg the uber coincidental encounter and subway for lunch and DELICIOUS HEELS FOR TEA. Still considering whether to get it, shall see tmr.
The main point of this post is to exclaim that I AM TOTALLY DEPRIVED OF ANY WORLDY JOY W
And totally eggcited for prom (God knows why) and trip and cruise omg please faster come laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
PS. i know how to play KMTTP ON THE PIANO BO JIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
PSS. Will miss ryan and louise when we're no longer studying together. I WANT TO STUDY WITH THEM LUH.
My horrible results and lack of ability to think and reason is not very comforting. At all.
[edit] But im going to learn a new song tmr to calm my nerves. :D:D:D:D [/edit]
My days that are filled with detentions (for God knows what reasons) and a constant twitching in my head when i do physics are that much bearable with friends around :)
Prelims are finally over! Im currently having a much needed, albeit shortlived break. Watched 2 movies over the past two days. Cloudy with a chance of meatballs and Funny people. Funny people SUCKS. period.
Cruise with two best girlfriends 27th to 30th, 99% confirmed! :D I AM SO EGGCITED. Its going to be so fucking amazing.
Shall start studying again on monday. Need a detailed study plan.
Tata, im off to entertain guests!
Had lunch alone in school HAHA i never thought i'd be able to live with that but somehow weirdly i was enjoying it. Then i went to town to get buy some stuff i can't find in tamps. Bought a new bikini and new underwear!!!! I AM SO HAPPY. After a shower at home i went for facial because my skin was beyond home remedies' redemption and boy did i love the two hours spent not having to THINK. Met Louise after her trng to catch The Ugly Truth and i must say it was a DAMN GOOD MOVIE PLEASE! I'd want to watch it again! :D
Yay now my brain isnt saturated anymore! (Y)!
Oh yea. A few days back i was reading my past posts and i realised how long this LJ has been with me. <3 ILHK WHOO! My past posts were all about how i had fun and how fun tires me out but recently, it has been quite the opposite. My life revolves around studying like a mad cow. Aiya not surprising alr luh zz.
But as for today, THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY. This is such a welcomed break from what otherwise would have been a mental torture of information overload.
Since i have a little time today, i would like to say something :
1. Thank you for walking this journey with me in GP and every other subjects, ranting and wanting to go join in the f1 frenzy and being the person i want to talk to after ever paper. I guess there isnt really much to say during this period of time. But if you're reading this (if youre online) all the best for the rest of the papers. And maybe you woke up at 1130 on saturday to watch spongebob. HAHA. <3
2. I'm glad you're feeling again. :) Its good to have the old you back, honestly. Thanks for everything as well, studying and talking shit and bitching. Will miss you when you're gone and when im gone. Good luck for pw, promos and titans!
3. We havent been spending time together of late, but i do miss you and your crazy antics. Closet clubbing @airport. Need more of that. Haha. I wish you the best for pw and promos and titans also!
I can't wait to lepak at simpang after last paper! :D
- Music:Pocket Full of Sunshine!
Im looking forward to meeting Jean/Ephraim @Simpang after last paper.
70 days to freedom. Yea, freedom not like we always overused it after promos or jcts, but freedom like i really mean it this time.
- Mood:CN.
Yay i like to listen to the best band play.
- Mood:Prelims started :O
It has been a long day, and after an alarmingly familiar GP essay question, satisfactory doses of Smallville and Heroes and a few troubling texts, i turn to new songs on youtube for solace, which i was supposed to otherwise get from friendship. Now its Chris Crocker ftw. YES CHRIS CROCKER'S SONG QUITE NICE HAHA.
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Talked to Ryan, i am secretly hoping he'll do me a little justice but i should stop being selfish. Sigh whatever. What hurts you the most are the people who mean something to you.
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Talked to someone who surprisingly was able to make me feel better even though he didnt know about the situation :) Thanks for that.
YAY some friends and music just made my dayyyyyyyyy.
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- Mood:WHAT THE FUCK.
The most important people in my TJ life :)
And i'm going to leave them soon. How awesome is a levels?
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This feels just like.. SUMMER <3
1) Blazing hot sun. YES IN MID SEPT. I got my tan back (<333333!!), oh glorious sun. Which reminds me, i have to get a new bikini soon, cus the current is furring(?!). I must have scrubbed too hard. And get presents.
2) EPHRAIM'S LESSONS YAY you cannot imagine how happy i was running for bus 10, prancing up the steep slope which made my calves hurt (unfit much?) and opening the english villa gate OH JOY. Plus i can write something that makes sense! :D!!
AAAAAAAND, I cannot emphasize this enough : I cannot wait until the A levels are over. The days after seem so, surreal. (No jean its not the cheemest thing i said, and i dont sound funny being so. >_> ) I have never, i repeat in caps, NEVER stopped studying my entire life. My dreams of what i can do and am going to do after this major exam is something i fucking deserve, no matter how crazy it can sound. This prospect EXCITES ME.
Firstly, after the teacher announce the end of the last paper, im going to punch my fist in the air in utter glee and scream "FUCK YOU ALL *********!!!" And run to the toilet, change out of my tj uniform and say, burn it? Perhaps i wouldnt even wait until i reach the toilet. The hall would suffice. Then I'll probably go out with Rim/Joella/RQ/Val after hopefully to chill at starbucks again. Hm sudden craving for java chip. Mm hmm.
My cousin's wedding on the 1st. :) Yummy hotel food yay! + family fun. Okay just family. :D
Outings with Louise/Jo, Jean, J, whoever.
Prom which i highly doubt i'd love, but oh well. Once in a lifetime. Plus i get to put on as much make up and NOBODY CAN SAY ANYTHING SHUT UP YOU ALLZ.
Manicure/pedicure, full body wax, facials, hair highlights, tanning i will pamper myself and make everyone else my SLAVES. Okay i sound slightly scary here. But hey, i paid you!
Cruise :) Please?
KOREA! WHOAAAAAAAAAAA STEAMBOAT SEX! + SPA HAHA C'MON WORLD PAMPER ME. CUS' THIS IS WHAT I DESERVE.
ZOUKOUT/XMAS/NEW YEAR MY LIFE IS COMPLETE.
Oh and the week before the physics MCQ which i bet they delibrately dated 30nov to extend our misery, i'm going to slack until i COMBUST (decompose in oxygen). So that after that paper, i wont waste time slacking and it will be a full month of partying YAY.
See? Doesnt that make your insides do a little happy dance for me?
Okay but now more pressing things are calling out to me like ELECTROCHEM. FML.
- Mood:artistic
Do we not wish for freedom from the self imposed chains of expectations and the responsibilities that comes with whoever we want to be? To make myself clearer, haven't you heard of with great power there must also come great responsibilities? (Ok too many rhetorical questions) Maybe as eighteen/seventeen year olds, we may be far from being powerful, but we are no longer adolescents who can escape the consquences of our doings or shrug things off with an innocent looking smile. I detest how i can see things from a more mature and holistic perspective, all of which aiding my conscience in biting me when i do something socially or traditionally labelled wrong. Tired and weary, i'd like to give up my legality for some blissful ignorance. Pretty please.
On another note, i must be the slackest J2 student EVER. Cus i skipped school and did nothing for the entire day. 'Cept for watch MVA, which was a huge disappointment. Hurray me. Desperately need to tan, work out and study. In other words, MOVE.
Moving on(haha pun), i feel the need to blog about my 18th birthday celebrations because it was possibly the best days of my life. I say possibly.
- Mood:
happy - Music:I know you want me - Pitbull
- Mood:WTF.
- Mood:
bouncy
" Walau eh you hide the chicken under the phone!"
"HAHAHA YOU HAVE RUBBERBANDS IN YOUR MOU
HAHAHAH DAMN FUNNY CRACKS ME UP.
HAPPY VROOMDAY RYAN. I love you bitchhhhhh. <3
Lunch at Foo'shouse. Pumpkin soup with the foo word. HAHA DAMN FUNNY. If me and ryan stayed in DH we'd be chinese girls in cheongsams with curly hair HAHA. :)
Dinner at pizzahut for trish tmr. gonna bring camera! Then can upload photos all at once. I should gym beforehand in school. I havent been gymming for so long its scary and not funny.
Tanning on tuesday! :D
I want to go to zn's soon! heh.
Someone has been flaming my cousin like shes the biggest fuck in the world. I hope she can not be so full of herself and condemn people just because shes fucking jealous and insecure. She can be unhappy about an incident but she need not be so childish and be so personal. I need to see her and clean her mouth with my shit personally, (you know how i get when im angry and bitchy towards someone, if you know me well enough), but its gonna happen on the 29th, so might not be possible. Aiya why must everything land on the same day? I'm going to have to split myself. Need to talk to J soon. And BITCH! Maybe i'll ask her out to study. :)
Tmr really musnt slack. Wake up alr MUST do work. Have to complete alcohols and nitrogen compounds tmr. And all the protected time revision.
Sunday somebody's birthday! :D And study+movie with Jo. :D
I owe pictures from previous (failed) study session at Tampz Starbucks. Will be up soon i guess. V tired nowz.
Kbye, off to bathe.
PS. everyone calls me fat. no, really.
Today did NOT work out ):): On the bright side, my dad got me a 50 bucks topshop voucher! For free fromo his credit card company! YAY. Then just now he asked me if i wanted an ipod. Hm, suddenly he's getting me everything. But i said no luh :) I bought a bandage skirt, quite pretty. Want to wear it soon. I want to get a mani/pedi for my birthday. Then i'll be like going for makeover, remove braces and everything. FUN FUN. And new bikini! Feel like getting the same design LOL.
All in all i need to shop soon. Im like a bloody bimbo. sigh.
Changed my waterpolo to softball this wednesday, so it doesnt spoil my tan.
Cannot wait for generation bbq to catch up with lovely 15th Gamma. And eat free food that is already cooked yay.
9th Aug omg omg omg. Please must work.
Hoping that operation abcdefghijkmnopqrstuvwxyz works out, and soon too.
AAAAAAND no more computer for a while now.
Till then.
- Mood:
cynical
Macdonalds shaker fries+us = gila temasek. BEST :) Studying was good. Was actchly productive for the time we spent. Except for the time we are discussing our evil plan that HAS GOT TO BE CARRIED OUT SOON.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELOVED KRISLYN <3
Meeting her again tml. YAY.
I'm going to start studying for prelims starting monday ;) hello nerd.
But but, 9th aug must work out.
- Mood: hopeful
In my mind i frantically searched all the way back to the last message of my inbox. I remember a text from Jolene saying she just came back from Nippon and she misses me but she wants to go back. A text from louise saying that i was damn retarded. Texts from J to encourage me to hold on. Texts from A who acknowledged and cherished my existence. Message from Jolene that says something like "Nahbey im supposed to be at your house now". Texts from jean about funny jokes (one room flats and big mansion) And those which carried birthday, christmas, new year wishes from my lovely friends. Messages from certain boys, four to be exact, some who means nothing to me, but others who still hold a place in my heart. Texts from my parents :) etc. You see, im trying very hard to revive things that happened as long as 2 years ago.
Its practically a record of my presence, those who really makes my day and makes living worthwhile, and what i've been through. Now you see how much it meant to me. How i get extremely paranoid of losing my phone, cus its not a phone i'll lose, but a part of me.
I pray, hard, that i'll be able to retrieve them tml. And damn you samsung.
- Mood:
depressed
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